Sunday, October 21, 2018



I've been away for some time.  My daughter has been very ill and I've been caring for her children and going through an awful time worrying if she would make it through.
Luckily she did and is now on her way to a good recovery after suffering from deadly infections and two surgeries.  She and the entire family has developed a deeper sense of gratitude.  I am also more conscious of what it must mean to lose a child.  My deepest condolences to any of you who have.  Blessings to you.

Following are my thoughts while driving home after visiting my daughter who remained motionless on a hospital bed... in pain, waiting for life or death.



DESPAIR

I saw the moon beautifully rising
Changing from juicy orange 
To the brightness of a bride
Shinning in the joy of light
Within the void of space
The darkness of future time

The outline of its mouth
The lidless holes of its eyes
Smiled down at me
A helpless member of the suffering species
Tasting the vivid poison of life
And death
Forgetting blind hope for good tomorrows

I hated the moon for its complacent happiness
How dare it smile
While I could only cry
From horror of fear




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18 comments:

  1. Sherry Blue SkyOctober 21, 2018 at 11:44 AM

    I can imagine how you felt, the moon so beautiful and impervious, you, "a helpless member of the suffering species". I am so glad your daughter pulled through, Myrna, and am so happy to read you again. It must have been such a frightening time. There is no fear greater than the fear of losing a child.

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  2. Elephant's ChildOctober 21, 2018 at 12:27 PM

    I am so very glad that your daughter is in recovery mode. It must have been a truly dreadful time for you all.

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  3. brudbergOctober 21, 2018 at 1:08 PM

    I totally understand... how dare the moon, how can it be calm when there's a storm in my heart?

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  4. tonispencerOctober 21, 2018 at 1:50 PM

    I am so glad your daughter is in recovery mode. It is hard watching someone you love go through illness. And yes - how dare the moon be so glowing and so calm.

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  5. VickiOctober 21, 2018 at 3:02 PM

    Lovely poem, so happy for your blessings.

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  6. Carrie Van HornOctober 21, 2018 at 3:36 PM

    Your poem has captured despair beautifully Myrna! I am glad your daughter is doing better. That is a true blessing, and yes that can give one a deeper sense of gratitude. So lovely to see you writing and posting again!

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  7. Sanaa RizviOctober 21, 2018 at 3:36 PM

    I am so relieved that your daughter is in recovery mode now, Myrna. Sending love and prayers 💖

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  8. MaryOctober 21, 2018 at 4:29 PM

    Yes, how dare the moon smile while you cry!!! I understand that sentiment. I had wondered where you were, Myrna, and I am glad to see you back now. I am sorry about your daughter's illness & am glad that she has recovered. Such a worry. I understand how you would cry from horror of fear. I am glad you were able to be there for your daughter!

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  9. Wendy BourkeOctober 21, 2018 at 6:12 PM

    I love this! It seems that no matter what we are going through on this rock of a planet - good to bad and beyond - that same ol', same ol' moon seems to grin down upon us, exacerbating EVERYTHING. A poignant and very real piece of writing. All the best to you and yours, Myrna.

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  10. ZQOctober 21, 2018 at 6:46 PM

    Geesh, well written but scared the B'jesus out of me.
    ZQ

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  11. TruedessaOctober 21, 2018 at 7:49 PM

    You have captured raw emotions in your words. Perhaps, the moon was light in your time of darkness. Just a different perspective. I am glad your daughter is recovering.

    Wishing you peace.

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  12. Magaly GuerreroOctober 21, 2018 at 7:58 PM

    When times are toughest, it's so difficult to see or appreciate the good and seemingly simple things... It's a human thing, I think. How can anything be so pleased with itself while your child hurts? The emotions are justified... and heart-tearing.


    I'm so glad your daughter is doing better.

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  13. ThotpurgeOctober 21, 2018 at 8:04 PM

    So glad your daughter is recovering. I like the way you say darkness of future time.. the moon is our sounding board at the best and worst of times.

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  14. Rosemary Nissen-WadeOctober 21, 2018 at 9:15 PM

    It's a very beautiful poem, albeit expressive of the trauma, with some striking images. I won't easily forget 'The lidless holes of its eyes' – but neither will I soon forget the bright beauty of the first verse. I'm so sorry to learn you have been going through such a dreadful time, and so glad that the corner has been turned.

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  15. Cressida de NovaOctober 21, 2018 at 10:05 PM

    Dear Myrna...I am so relieved your daughter is recovering.These endurance tests will strengthen the love and bonds in your family. May God bless you and yours always.

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  16. Colleen LooseleafOctober 22, 2018 at 7:39 PM

    You got me right there. I was transported.

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  17. kaykualaOctober 22, 2018 at 9:23 PM

    It would have been trying times Myrna! Thank to the Almighty that your loving daughter has now recovered. Family support has very strong effects, Yes!

    Hank

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  18. KBOctober 25, 2018 at 12:57 AM

    Oh my gosh that must have been terrifying for you. Glad she is doing better now.

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