Tuesday, July 24, 2012

HER JOURNALING




No.  Never did she allow view.
Her hidden private scribbles
contained her shame.
Mirror of darkness she wrote,
reflection of her dismal soul
uncontrolled, she could not deny
insidious thoughts

repeating, repeating themselves
in harsh judgment, resentment,
unsure if she was processing hate
or if her writing was dialogue
with wickedness harbored
in her pen.

Obsessively she wrote her pain,
profound imperfections personified
within her, disclosed on pages
smeared with bloody grieving tears
recounting sorrowful regrets for things
done, or that will never be.

Finally, pen emptied of dark ink
she read each secret page,
before she embraced it,
released it to the wind and sun.
to be gently bleached.

Now, blank pages thirst
as she writes
in white.


(Submitted to:  Dverse Poets
                        Poets United

23 comments:

  1. nice...writing is therapeutic...and it is best to get it out...i get many of the kids i work with to journal so they can get to the point they can release it....nice capture myrna...smiles.

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  2. This is so true to what we need to do to 'let go'.So many of us (myself included for so many years) think that if we hold on tight to the pain, whatever its cause, if we hide it somewhere deep inside where it cannot see the light of day then, it can't hurt us anymore but, we don't understand that it is exactly that which keeps us hurting. I love this! It is so symbolic of what needs to be done. Get it all out, in darkest ink if it must be, then let it go and begin again.
    What a wonderful read for me tonight Myrna

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  3. I could so relate...much journaling done in my life...it does seem to help to get it down on paper...and then hopefully, let it go. A wonderful writing.

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  4. I can so relate to this too ~ I think writing it all down, all the anger, regrets and negative thoughts is a good thing ~ Nice share Myrna ~

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  5. OH dear, this is very sad. A really interesting poem, but sad. k.

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  6. Bring it out in the open! You're so right, Myrna! The subconscious is very potent. It pricks the conscience. It affects our thinking in a negative way. You brought it out so well. Great write Ma'am!

    Hank

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  7. I loved this poem... when I've gone through the down and dark times of my life, my journal saved me. So, let me ask you a question, Myrna. You saw those four words and then this poem just came out? Amazing. I am in awe...

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  8. Repeating "repeating" was a powerful choice.


    Sorry for the loud music on my post today!
    Won't happen again ;-{

    Aloha from Waikiki
    Comfort Spiral
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    > < } } ( ° >

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  9. I don't find this sad at all. I find this liberating. Seeing into one's soul is the best kind of therapy - writing in white - I love that symbol of personal freedom, of purification, of true liberation. Let the breeze take the frustration, let the sun burn pure your soul! Great!!

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  10. This is confirmation for me right now...I just came across my latest journal untouched for many months now and I thought, "I should start journaling again," I'm really glad that you do Myrna and that you wrote this tribute of it...meant to be...love this:

    "I pursue my spiritual growth constantly. Yet, I am certain that the Spirit for whom I yearn...is already here."

    From your about...such a comfort. great writing Myrna!

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  11. Ah yes, so much of what guides me inside, the good and the bad, is released in my journals. It is a catharsis, letting it go, giving to the universe to make a clean slate. Beautiful.

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  12. beautiful...I love the idea of embracing it and then releasing it to the sun and wind.

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  13. I like this very much and the feelings you express with such candor. I admire your honesty.

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  14. love that she managed to put her pain into words and kind of write it away to make space for new beginnings and new words on blank pages in white...love this myrna

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  15. I agree with the view you are profiling a sad orientation. What this writer does is impossible. The pen of a dark person will never be white. You must be nice to be pretty. I am sorry so many identify with what you write.

    Your blog is, by the way, beautiful. It is clear, neat and nice.

    (。◕‿◕。)

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  16. Beautiful, but how sad.
    I felt an Alzheimer's edge to these lines:

    Obsessively she wrote her pain,
    profound imperfections personified
    within her, disclosed on pages
    smeared with bloody grieving tears
    recounting sorrowful regrets for things
    done, or that will never be.

    And, maybe because of this, as she released her pages and they turned white I thought of loss of flesh, death and the bleaching of bones. That is what my experience brought to my reading, so let me apologize if this is about you and liberation won through the "journal therapy." And thank you for your poem.

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  17. oh to be emptied of dark ink....we all have those dark secrets...writing is so cathartic isn't it...so proud of you and the way you put your work 'out there'...love to you....

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  18. I think this is really powerful and beautiful in a terrible way. That is what poetry and wiring do, and you say it powerfully, very hauntingly. Words open us up to the world and our action in it, revealing how they make us think and act and make our selves come to be. What is very clear here is how close you are to the secrets that words harbor, and they way they bring us to be who we are.

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  19. My dear Myrna,
    You know I mean it when I say you are a TALENT!! Love your style of writing with such tender emotions. Very, very well written my friend.

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  20. Beautiful poem dear Myrna, these words mirror my own sentiments when it comes to writing. I often feel it is a relief - writing releases my burdens and troubles, making me see things more clearly when I force them to make sense on paper.;)
    Everyone who loves to write will appreciate this post.
    Have a great weekend:)
    xoxo

    PS: Thank you for your always nice and very kind comments at my place, I really appreciate your visits.;)

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  21. I definitely believe that writing one's pain is a first step in releasing it. A well thought out poem, Myrna.

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