Your body uncontrollably folded over as your life slowly, and gradually diffused. Your chest working so hard to capture air, your eyes narcotically glazed, you recognized me and pierced me with your fear. Invisible fiery energy transmitted through my hands and touched you tenderly. I prayed that it would bring you peace, serenity, that you would gently let go and detach from this world.
My ego, ready and alert to take advantage of every opportunity, arose within and made me wonder. How will it be for me? Will I be scared? Will I welcome my departure? Where will death take me? Is there another place, another way of being... or, just an abyss, nothing?
So many questions made me realize that I know so little for sure. Hopefully, I'll get some answers when it's my turn. But at that moment all I really knew was that my touching you somehow helped; that from our human connection comfort flows and that love makes questions irrelevant.
May your last days be full of love.
Good bye.
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"Watching a peaceful death of a human being reminds us of a falling star; one of a million lights in a vast sky that flares up for a brief moment only to disappear into the endless night forever."
Elizabeth Kubler-Ross
heavy stuff today...i have touched it many a time...and that connection there at teh end i think eases it for them and us...
ReplyDeleteSo somber a subject. So wonderful to think you may have given a touch of comfort. Is it an end or a beginning? And does it really matter?
ReplyDeleteVery beautiful my friend.
What a powerful perspective. I am reminded of Stephen Covey's Seven Habits of Highly Effective People. One is 'Begin with the end in mind.' What will people from family, work, friends, community say about you at your funeral?
ReplyDeleteYes, Myrna, I have been there, too. (present at the moment of death, and also my own near death) It's important to be fully present when someone is dying. It's a gift. Thanks for sharing, oh and thank you for reading my blog, too.
ReplyDeleteYou made me cry - but that's not always bad.
ReplyDeleteAloha from Honolulu
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Beautiful. I was alongside my father in law through out his 3 months ordeal and watched him suffer through the 5 stages and the most peaceful was when he was at peace with himself... I was present with him till his very last breath and what an amazing experience..... It was humbling, poignant and I was not scared. I thank him for letting me walk by side till his end....
ReplyDeleteThank you for this reminder
I am not affraid of death...my own death that is. I am affraid of losing the ones I love, but for my own sense of selfishness, I don't want to live without them. My pray is for my end to be peaceful and with no regrets. Power write today, Myrna!
ReplyDeleteDear Myrna:
ReplyDeleteThe quote is a beautiful one. Death touches us in many ways but inspite of that every time we stumble on it, we lose a part of us.
Bless you.
Joy and peace always,
Susan
Myrna, you can bring beauty to even such a sad subject! I love the quote at the end. You're such a brave writer! I love that about you, you inspire me!
ReplyDeleteI lost my mother a few long short weeks ago and the last few days were both wonderful and terrible. I held her hand for hours and told her how much I loved her and we all got to say goodbye properly.
ReplyDeleteVery powerful Myrna. I am not afraid of dying because I know my son will be waiting for me. I too am crying, but its a good cry.
ReplyDeletePowerful moments turned tender as they touch, sharing inner peace able to now blossom within the soul of your friend. Nice write.
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